We live a life, waiting for accidents to happen.
When you’re in a plane, when you ride your car.
Each and every routine of living itself carries an authentic set of loosing.
So, why are we so afraid doing something unfamiliar, most of the times?
I guess the secret to a meaningful life, is not always about being happy all the time. But, it is about not being afraid of living, and co-exist with the possibility of unhappiness.
Living life passionately and unafraid of the where the course leads, is indeed a perilous path. But- since when, the very concept of life is not itself dangerous, intrusive, and risky?
No matter of what pathological childhood nor emotional hang-ups from past life you may carry, choose other weapon rather than avoidance; and be brave to brace yourself tightly. Most of the times, you will be on your own. Life; is not a wish granting factory. Avoiding defeat and not admitting depression; are at the very tip of igniting depression.
But, what about destiny?
Won’t destiny change your life?
Isn’t everything you do is predestined anyway?
I guess, destiny is merely a guess. A guess that thinks it knows what you would do, and what will happen to you like the intuition of a mother. But you can change it, and there is always room for improvisation. The best time to be alive is not when finally you can strut and brag about the things you have~ but on the contrary, is lowering yourself to the beggar position and trying to be the one who is kinder, loving deeper, and sacrifice braver. LET YOUR GUARD DOWN. Nobody can come across if you built it too high.
The only times I got really cut open are the times I’m not listening to my heart and let my rationales lead the way and crushes everything. My heart tries to create ridiculous standard for myself and my rationale “ratios” it down.
But by all means, you only get one chance. It’s THIS LIFE, It’s NOW or NEVER; so please do create ridiculous standard for yourself and then savour the inevitable failure. Let your heart learn from it and co-habit with the thorn until it became a part of you. Let the ground cracks and rocks crumble, that’s how something amazing grows~ through the cracks.
We are not always in the search of beautiful things, in fact, we are in constant pursuit to make things around us, beautiful.
Some Thought in the streets of Jakarta